I understand bro. Remember one thing though. If you are in a messed up situation, it is because you are allowing yourself to be there. A friend of mine once told me that I have to look at myself before I can look at the other person/people involved. I'm not saying you are causing the bad situation, but you are allowing yourself to be in it, and that is undeniable. What you choose to do about that is completely up to you, and no one else.
I'm definately not "Mr. Relationship", although I do have quite a bit of experience to look back on. It took my wife and I 8 years to fully understand each other. All 8 of those years we were either fighting or screwing. Our highs were super high, and our lows were super low. Probably had a lot to do with getting married so young (I was 21). We have both matured to a point where we don't argue much anymore, and we border on reading each other's minds. That's some scary shit. Scary, but cool too.
He cut the possum's face off then cut around the eye socket. In the center of the belt buckle, where the possum's eye would be, he has placed a small piece of wood from his old '52 Ford's home made railroad tie bumper. Damn, he misses that truck.