"And REAL satanism isn't worshipping the devil 'because he is evil', but because we believe that he is the one that truly wants freedom for the people, as opposed to god who wants conformity"
Thats funny, I see it completely the opposite way. My belief is that The illusion that Satan creates is exactly what you're explaining. Satan twists truth, a beautiful angel he is. Satan believes that life is more important than freedom, a very attractive idea for us mortal human. Satan attempts to suggest that life on this earth is the end - live it up - put your SELF before all things.
When I think of God, and Jesus Christ... I don't feel restricted at all. Perhaps what you're confusing them with are the false institutions that simply present themselves as Christians. You should all know that simply going by a title doesn't make you worthy of that name.
When I think of God, I think of a very chaotic force, one that I can't fully realise. God is all things, including Satan. When I think of Jesus Christ, I understand him to be a human, one of peace - and the true son of God. God, that being that we can not stand before, or else we'd apparently die. Jesus is the connection, the hybrid human/god between our world and God's true domain.
I don't know the answers. But I do know that there is a lot of effort to twist the truth - to push people to believe that this world is the end.
I guess because I believe that Jesus was here on this earth, and believe he is who he claims he is, I guess that makes me a Christian.
Do you realise what that means? Freedom. We are humans. God created us. He understands that we sin - we are not perfect, nor were we made to be. The bible really only states one thing - that we believe in Jesus Christ, and then we're granted passage into heaven when we die. All of the stuff about gays, not eating pork, sacrificing lambs and other crap - thats the old testiment, prior to Jesus's arival.
I often question the existence of a Hell. I wonder, why would God bother making us if we're simply destined to go to Hell? My latest beliefe is this: We're all given the opportunity to search for the truth. It is when we're given the truth and we deny it - that we're destined for hell. When we've stopped thinking, using our minds to search out the truth, we are in a sense, dead.
As someone who is still searching for truth...to all others out there - never stop thinking. If you keep an open mind you may find, as I have, that you're not living in a world that simply came to existence by random chance.
Now - about DOOM. BRING IT ON!!! GIVE ME EVIL SHIT!
Its all good.